Cha-vy

OMIGOSH WOW JEEZ I HAVE NOT TOUCHED THIS ACCOUNT IN FOREVER IMAO. GUYSSSS i'm miss you guys so much ;V; Especially friends who dont know where I went. I take one look at my old journals, and old me seems pretty edgy and depressed. Ouch. Okay then, now that's out of the way this is just to remind you guys that my new account is over here>>>>> I mean you can't miss it, it's right there buddies ; D  I feel like a big jerk for leaving and not telling people who cared about me but were probably to busy or had their own problems.(especially people from mylionking) I guess middle school just kills my chill. I'm not in middle school anymore, and everything is just better now.  Guys, I'm real sorry for bailing like that, my problems are solved at least XD

OMIGOSH WOW JEEZ I HAVE NOT TOUCHED THIS ACCOUNT IN FOREVER IMAO. GUYSSSS i'm miss you guys so much ;V; Especially friends who dont know where I went. I take one look at my old journals, and old me seems pretty edgy and depressed. Ouch. Okay then, now that's out of the way this is just to remind you guys that my new account is over here>>>>> I mean you can't miss it, it's right there buddies ; D  I feel like a big jerk for leaving and not telling people who cared about me but were probably to busy or had their own problems.(especially people from mylionking) I guess middle school just kills my chill. I'm not in middle school anymore, and everything is just better now.  Guys, I'm real sorry for bailing like that, my problems are solved at least XD

I've  got nothing. What do I have to explain? NoThINg. I'm  goinf to leave this account  inactive and start over for people  who wanna know where I'll  dissappear, i mean like frineds..... IF YOU EVEN READ THIS, note me. It's  kinda funny, I noticed my downward spiral to this day. How my first deviation  here and my first few journals are so..... so HAPPY. I wish I could be happy again, it's  so hard. I just put on my fake smile to pretend everything is alright. I've  made up my mind. What have I got to lose? And that fandom I've  been obessed with lately, is Sonic the hedgehog. Go ahead, call me cringy fangirl or whatever for liking sonic. I already get enough ridcule from IRL people also. I don't care anymore, just jump on the hate bandwagon. At least there's  more supportive people there. Whatever, I'm a sad lonely 14 year old girl, that's who I am. i dunno when that will ever change. I really wish I wasn't  so down about everything, to be happy would be great. To gain confidence in myself. What a imagination.

Does no one like talking to me? Or they do it when they feel like it or when they need me for something. Honestly, I feel as if most of you I call "friends" wouldn't even call me your friend. I've known some of you for a long while, and I consider you a friend. But I'm not YOUR friend. What's wrong with me? Is it because I'm boring and you don't care to talk to me? Am I annoying? I'm probably too depressing. It hurts ya know? I remember being friends with some of you guys. And you might've forgotten about me. Or, worst scenario, you are not friends with me anymore because you got new freinds...better  than me I guess. Everyone's got their friends I guess, it's sometimes it's on their page. And I know I support them but not good enough to ever be friends, even if I known them for a long while. It's ok. Now I know I wasn't good enough for friendship. This always happens to me...I feel left out. Maybe that's why I don't post here. Even in IRL "friends" leave me. One of them was a daughter of my mom's friend, and all he ever does when we hang out is go on my phone to text her real friends, never really talking to me. They talk with me, hang out, but when real friends come along they leave me right away. I'm THAT second hand friendo. ;^; man does that hurt. I'm use to it I guess. But it gets to me. I have only one real friend and I can only see her once a week. So I'm just alone. Even my little sister has more friends than me. I don't even care anymore. What's the point? Please just let me be and go if you were never really my friend...I'm gonna get rid of that friend list. Most of them forgot me. Sorry for this depressing post, I can't help it. I just want it to end.

Does no one like talking to me? Or they do it when they feel like it or when they need me for something. Honestly, I feel as if most of you I call "friends" wouldn't even call me your friend. I've known some of you for a long while, and I consider you a friend. But I'm not YOUR friend. What's wrong with me? Is it because I'm boring and you don't care to talk to me? Am I annoying? I'm probably too depressing. It hurts ya know? I remember being friends with some of you guys. And you might've forgotten about me. Or, worst scenario, you are not friends with me anymore because you got new freinds...better  than me I guess. Everyone's got their friends I guess, it's sometimes it's on their page. And I know I support them but not good enough to ever be friends, even if I known them for a long while. It's ok. Now I know I wasn't good enough for friendship. This always happens to me...I feel left out. Maybe that's why I don't post here. Even in IRL "friends" leave me. One of them was a daughter of my mom's friend, and all he ever does when we hang out is go on my phone to text her real friends, never really talking to me. They talk with me, hang out, but when real friends come along they leave me right away. I'm THAT second hand friendo. ;^; man does that hurt. I'm use to it I guess. But it gets to me. I have only one real friend and I can only see her once a week. So I'm just alone. Even my little sister has more friends than me. I don't even care anymore. What's the point? Please just let me be and go if you were never really my friend...I'm gonna get rid of that friend list. Most of them forgot me. Sorry for this depressing post, I can't help it. I just want it to end.